For the first time since her loss to Holly Holm, Ronda Rousey opens up on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” about how hard her first career loss was.
The fight ended with a head kick that rendered Rousey unconscious and handed her the only defeat of her MMA career. Rousey told Ellen that as soon as she realized what happened, her thoughts drifted to suicide because without being the most dominant athlete in the world, who was she going to be now?
“Honestly, my thought, I was like down in the medical room in the corner and I was like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’ I was literally sitting there thinking about killing myself at that exact second,” Rousey explained while fighting back tears. “I’m like, ‘I’m nothing. What do I do anymore? No one gives a s— about me anymore without this.’”
It was a painful moment for her but when she spotted her boyfriend, Travis Browne, that moment passed. Seeing him standing there was exactly what she needed to snap out of it.
“To be honest, I looked up and saw that my man Travis was standing there and I looked up at him and was just like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive,’” she said with a laugh. “I was thinking I was meant to have him when I was at my lowest. I wouldn’t have made it without him.”
As awful as the loss was Rousey will be returning to the Octagon later this year and will fight to reclaim what was once hers.
The episode is set to air later this afternoon.